Maybe this set of happy photos (pssst – I was definitely tipsy from a bottomless brunch here) isn’t the best imagery to correspond with how I’ve been feeling lately. The truth is, I’ve been feeling a little down for the past month or so. There’s a lot fueling my bummer mood: my job has been more stressful these past few weeks, body image issues, adult friendships, and a general “meh” feeling.
The summer season has made me feel really weird about my body. And I’ve developed a bad habit of scrolling through my google photos from past summers and comparing my current body to old photos. The constant scrolling + Instagram has lead to a stream of negative body image thoughts creeping into my head:
- “Were these shorts bigger on me last year?”
- “Have my legs always touched this much when I walk?”
- “Why can’t I look like her…?”
- “How is everyone a size 2?!”
Another area of my life that is kind of bumming me out? Adult friendships. Before I get into this I want to say that I love, love, love my friends. I’m so grateful for the number of amazing people I get to spend my life with. But lately, I’ve felt like my friendship with a lot of people is not worth their time (this is not a fact, but is just how I feel).
I’m a planner and organizer by nature, so I usually take charge and plan parties & outings. But I’ve started to feel like I’m the only one inviting friends to get-togethers and planning everything. And then I’m not receiving the same invites (maybe no one is doing anything…?). And it feels kind of shitty. It makes me feel like maintaining the friendship is 100% on me, and I I’ll go out on a limb here and say I don’t think anyone likes that feeling. All of that said, I’m sure some of my friends must think this way about me, and I don’t want to discount their feelings either.
Maybe I’m overreacting. I usually over think things like this, but that’s how I’ve been feeling and I wanted to get the feelings out here; in a space I create and share with you all. Have you guys felt feelings like this before? What did you do to get out of the funk?